8.4.05
5:43:00 PM
“Tension of Opposites”
one of my ultimate favorite book was ‘Tuesdays with Morie’ cguro marami n nakaka familiarize nito for it is internationally acclaim best sellers of all time…it is about the story of a student and his professor in college…Morie. Daming beses sa chapter na naging teary eyed nnmn aq… dami mong ma222nan sa book na to..particularly ung tension if opposites;
“Life is a series of pulls back and forth. You want to do one thing but you are bound to do something else. Something hurts you, yet you know it shouldn’t. You take certain things for granted, even when you know you should never take anything for granted”
kakatuwa kasi, this really true, most of us live somewhere in the middle. A tension of opposites, like a pull on a rubber band, Like in a wrestling match…like whether you go on date or attend class, in all of these dw love always wins…cguro nga…kaya dami ko na absent..hehe..
I really recommend this book to all… haPi rEaDinG!!! :)
tru_clinE;
tara! gala! |
6.4.05
5:40:00 PM
Nightmare???
I almost forgot the incident happen to me while I was trying to get a sleep… na I feel dead for 1 to 3 minutes… nangyari eto mga around 2:30 am, madaling araw ng april 2…galling sa pagcocomputer, natulog na aq… (maaga pa nga un kaysa sa mga previous days na 4am na talaga aq na22log… ) una, ipinikit q na mata q, denidemand ng utak q, matulog, pero inisip q muna mga nangyari sa buong araw…kaya naglaban antok q at pagiisip q… nirecall q ung palabas na “full house” kakakilig…then naimagine q na lumalangoy daw aq sa pool…actually ndi aq, parang another someone. Then it felt so real, ung flash ng tubig sa pool once you dive in… ung warmth na dala pag nasa underwater kana…, pressure sa tenga…I know that time na I imagining it lang …nagmulat aq ng mata…ok, I was still in my room, sabi ko sa sarili ko…kaya ipinikit ko uli mata q… nakatulog na aq ng mga 15 to 20 min cguro un… ng bumalik ung flash scene sa pool… then the next thing I remember, parang ang ingay ng pressure na sobrang nakakabingi na…tinanong ko sarili ko, ganon ba talaga na un pag natutulog k? is this just normal? And blank……………….”enggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg”
Ang ingay! nabibingi na aq! Hindi q masabi kung anong klaseng tunog…natakot n aq.. nakapag isip ng malinaw, this time parang nagising ung diwa q…but to my surprice, gusto kong bumangon, hindi q magawa, gusto ko ng makawala from that strange sound! Naisip ko kung imagination ko pa din bayon? Natatawa pa nga ako sa sarili ko non eh…kasi alam ko imagination ko lang yon…then after 29 seconds na tinatry qng bumangon, na igalaw kahit man lang mga kamay at paa ko…hindi q magawa nagpanic aq mind q…ang alam q nagagalaw q kamay q pero nararamdaman q hindi parin ako gumagalaw sa pwesto q…gusto ko ng bumangon! Dumilat aq… totoo!hindi talaga aq makabangon! It’s like umalis ung kaluluwa q sa katawan q na I ran out controlled over my body…pumikit aq then nagconcentrate…na bumalikwas… basta iba ung feeling na alam mong wala ka sa katawan mo… natakot na ako, then I felt back to normal ng magalaw q isa qng daliri… weird pero blank ang naisipko after…inignore q… hindi q maabsorb kong it really happened to me ba? Or not? Natulog uli aq, baka mamaya maisip ko kung ano… pero one things for sure, ayaw ko n magimagine about ung s pool…. Ng biglang parang maiisip ko nnmn, inierase q bigla s utak q… eto ba nagagawa ng sobrang pagpupuyat? What’s with the underwater pool scene?
Sa ngayon pag iniisip q na I actually encounter something like that…naluluha aq… yon nab a yong bangongot na sinasabi nila? Hindi ka magising kahit alam mo ng nananaginip kalang? Na totoo ba yon? Or naghahalucinate ka lang? Na what if kung hindi ka magising? Kung ano pa man yon… I’m thankful, I’d still be able to pursue my life…:) tinapik lang ata aq ni lord, nakakalimutan ko na kasi cia…
S incident na yon dami q narealize… totoo once you learn to die, you will learn to live…everyone knows they’re going to die, but nobody believe it… kasi if we did, we would do things differently…we kid ourselves about death… this really hit me, big time.
tru_clinE;
tara! gala! |
