21.3.05
8:23:00 PM
Reserved…
I’ve been asked many times, mostly in the interviews, of what kind a person I am.. tz I would tell them n super kulit aq, isip bata, magulo,…nd oder blah!blah!blah! pero s totoo lang.. I just said that para wag n nila aq iask further.. I don’t like opening my true self to others kz..awkward ang feeling..kaya minsan sinabihan aq ng best friend q n im a reserved person..at first I was skeptic.. pero narealize q n oo nga reserve person aq.. my classmate once ask me if ever there was a time b n serious aq..n lagi b aqng makulit parang sintu-sinto, hindi makausap ng matino..laging parang joke..then cnagot q cia ng bkit? And then theyre started laughing again..actually I ask him why, not bcoz I want the laughing not to stop but bcoz bkit nga nya natanong? And isn’t that obvious n im jst wearing a mask? Funny kc I let the laughing to continue lang they think of me as a clown of the group the “naïve” one.. im lucky to have closest friends n totoo at kilala tlg aq until now when I tell them a joke they’ll jst listen, nagaalala agad cla kz they see through me behind those jokes..kabaliktaran daw kz aq..when id make a joke dw crgurado cla n may problem dw aq.. minsan nga totoo.. hmmm…they really may be my true friends after all! That’ why I treasure them..
I tend to be funny around outside while truly inside.. im a kind of person n don’t want to talk about problems.. gus2 q hapi crowd lang as possible.. I don’t like the feeling hurt or frustrated by it..that’s my way of escaping it.. pere actually im jst okey bout it for I have naman my real friends who knows me.. I cant deny a secret to them.. hndi q n kailngan ng madami pang friends n kailangan mo pang mkifit in s knila.. survival of the fittest, e2 n ang mundo ntin. To survive you need to fit in..
Im a resrved person im partly proud of it for it is my way para wag massaktan..partly not dn.. Im scared, I guess of the rejection, all of us do..
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